read Cat's Cradle again. watched Apocalypse Now Redux.
suffice to say they make me feel less than optomistic about the human race.
but i think, contrary to all evidence and facing my own grand stupidity, i shall remain optimistic.
nothing is more heartbreaking than hopelessness, even if its right... think of the saddest moments youve ever had the anti-priviledge of witnessing? mine usually involve someone floundering in the realization that mankind is a band of doomed animals that would "just as soon step on your face as look at you." but i guess i shouldnt feel bad for them...theyve caught on, and im still paddling around in a delusional backwater playground where eventually everyone will help each other into the boat. but, ignorance is bliss i guess. conversely, i think a lot of the happiest moments revolve around ppl doing all they can to maintain the optimism that is strived for, even if they dont believe its possible. especially when they dont believe its possible none of this is new, or groundbreaking, or original. im simply coming to the conclusions that millions have already thought of and millions more will think of. listened to The Bends. now listening to Automatic for the People. i havent in a long time. it is one of the Forbidden Discs. i always thought that "Girl from the North Country" by Bob Dylan and "Scarborough Fair" by Simon and Garfunkel were uncannily similar...it turns out theyre based around the same old fold tune. who knew?...probably lots of ppl...oh well. i think the fact that both contain the line "she was once a true love of mine" tipped me off. i pick up on subtlety. bob dylan wrote "girl from the north country" for a woman he was dating who went to italy, she left him and went there to continue schooling. he chased her to italy and couldnt find her. he came home to america, dejected, and she was waiting for him there. she had come back to america the same day he left for italy, looking for him, or so the legend goes. she is the woman on the cover of Freewheelin...thats where the movie version wouldve ended.
but they broke up anyway...but that snapshot on the front and back cover of Freewheelin is still kinda nice (probably not for him) but they do look pretty happy "Oh..., oh..., but sweetness follows"
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